This is my pussy. We’ve had a long, love-hate relationship over the past 21 years, but I’m glad to say that as of recently we remain on extremely amicable terms.
I can’t quite remember the first time I discovered masturbation/stimulated myself, but I distinctly remember hearing something about the “Big O” on T.V. one day when I was about 11 and deciding to do some research. After looking up the terms “orgasm” and subsequently “masturbation” on the web, I took it upon myself to see what all the fuss was about.
Well, about two minutes after finding my clitoris and about a minute of stimulating it with a few Q-tips (note my scientific approach to the whole business of investigating my anatomy), I had my first toe-curling orgasm. I was HOOKED.
From that point on I have masturbated on a fairly regular basis, usually having several orgasms in any one session every other day or so. I began with basic clitoral stimulation and a disregard of sorts for the actual purpose of my vulva. However, this was about the same time that I began to develop more fully into a mature woman and took notice of some of the several changes in my body.
Along with the enlarged breasts and curvier silhouette came much fleshier labia that eventually came to hang down from my body when I stood. I was extremely self-conscious of this new growth between my legs, and was actually quite positive for some time that I was some kind of hermaphrodite, born with scrotal sacs and testicles that surely never dropped (even though I started menstruating when I was 10).
The size of my labia continued to bother me, with my anger and self-consciousness coming to a head when I was 13 and ended up stripping down for a shower early one morning while my Mother was still doing her hair. Upon seeing me bend over to turn on the faucet, she proceeded to proclaim “What the hell is that between your legs?!?” I was upset by her reaction in general, but even further incensed when she gave me a peculiar “Better you than me” look when I told her it was nothing, just the way I was.
After this point I felt very insecure about my labia, and as a result I lost interest in any sexual experience I may have encountered. I still masturbated, but was sure that I would never have the confidence to allow someone to see the way I looked. This, I later realized, was exactly the problem. As young girls, we are not really shown how vulvas look when displayed with open legs, and usually have no frame of reference as young boys, whose penises are a prominent part of their lives from an extremely young age, do with their fathers, brothers, peers from restroom experience, etc.
However, I was tooling around on the internet when I was 17 and decided to search “large labia.” To my complete and utter surprise I found that I was not at all alone, but perhaps one of a majority of women who have similarly fleshy vulvas and often an accompanying misinterpretation of how “wrong” they are anatomically speaking.
Since then, I have become my pussy’s biggest fan in every sense of the word! I am much more comfortable with the way I look, and have come to greatly enjoy the pleasure of having larger inner labia and thus more surface area to enjoy while masturbating.
I have come to truly appreciate the satiny texture of my labia, and the difference in the taupey color on the outside of my lips to the soft, glistening pink inside. The gentle way they fold together when left to lie on their own, or the lovely petal shapes they make when splayed open for easier access. I even like the way they can sometimes totally disappear inside my outer lips when I stand up. I now actually consider my pussy the best of my features, and kind of like the fact that it’s a little complicated and different from everyone else, just like me.
Currently, I keep my pubic hair pretty natural, trimming it every few weeks or so, and shaving just around my labia for aesthetics and the smooth feeling it creates. As aforementioned, I am still very much into clitoral stimulation and am yet to achieve any kind of orgasm without it, but have found myself increasingly enjoying penetration with a 6-inch life-like vibrating dildo.
This pleasure took several years to achieve, as I am still “technically” a virgin (actually, I’ve never done anything remotely sexual with someone else aside from kissing), and thus had to pop my own cherry, if you’ll excuse the expression. However, penetration with long, fast strokes has become one of my absolute necessities when embarking on a somewhat rare (busy student + two jobs), fully nude masturbation session.
Along with my changing opinions about my own anatomy have come changing attitudes toward sex. Although I’ve almost always considered sex something totally sacred and meant to be experienced as something extremely special between two people, I have, as of late, come to realize that it is something that can be experienced as simply a pleasurable connection with another individual that can provide many satisfying emotions instead of creating loss or danger (when occurring outside of a serious relationship). In other words, I am now completely open to experiencing sex with someone I trust implicitly (male or female), but they by no means need to be my lifelong, committed partner.
So, in closing, I have come to adore my pussy, and I’m sure, especially after reading the other admiring comments in the gallery, that whomever I share her with will probably like her as much as I do, if not more. And also, THANK YOU Betty and crew, for providing us the knowledge and ability to like ourselves and proudly display our normally hidden bits and pieces to other like-minded individuals. Hopefully some young girl who may be experiencing similar self-consciousness to my own will find this site and be consoled, as I was, by what she finds.
P.S. I never once took myself as someone who would find taking pictures of herself at all pleasurable, but found this impromptu photo session (like I said, busy girl) to be one of the most erotic things I have ever done. Seeing my pussy on screen has made me fall in love with her even more ;-).
