Hi Dr. Betty,
The first time I pleasurably touched myself I was about 4 years old. Never before had anything felt so delightful. I remember rubbing the opening and I think I even put a finger in there. I remember falling asleep smelling my finger.
When I was about 6 years old my best girlfriend and I used to play a game that we knew we had to hide from our families. We would get completely naked and lay in bed together. We rubbed and fingered one another's pussy. We sometimes lay naked on top of one another and kissed lip to lip but never with open mouths.
When I was alone I had my own dark masturbation secrets. I remember doing something that I still find oddly kinky. When I was 7-10 years old I used to take a little doll that had no clothes and suck on it enough to wet it, then I would fuck myself with it. Sliding it in and out while rubbing my budding breasts with the other hand. I loved that naked doll, I used to suck on the head after it had been inside me.
I had my first orgasm when I was 8. I loved getting naked and laying on the cold hardwood floors while rubbing my pussy to orgasm. By nine I was an expert.
I remember being left home alone on Friday nights when I was 13. My family was an hour away at my aunt's house and I was in heaven. I would spend hours playing with my tits and pussy. I would rub my pussy against doorknobs or laying on my stomach while bunching up a pillow between my legs and rubbing my pussy against it. I would cum numerous times that way, working up a sweat.
I have always fantasized about masturbating in front of someone and about masturbating in adult movies and photos. Recently I have learned to masturbate in front of my boyfriend and we are looking for another woman for us to do mutual masturbation with.
Ask me my hobbies or favorite pastime and I will honestly say it's masturbation. I love my boyfriend but he lives out of town and we have phone sex every night, only with each other. I masturbate with my hands and by rubbing my clit and them sliding a vibrator in and out of my wet pussy. Sometimes I even put my small dildo with a flared base in my ass.
Last month I ejaculated. WOW. I had never felt so good. I had a huge grin for two days. It was intense. I was sweating and panting and my whole body shook. I found the trick, at least for me, was to make myself cum three or four times one right after the other and then push down as hard as I could while rubbing my clit, and then I ejaculated. :)
I know that I will always enjoy pleasuring myself and am sure that I will learn new tricks as I grow and learn.
Nadine, L.A. CA
