May has ended and here I am, reading my notes, remembering all the exciting things and writing a recap that’s a couple of days overdue. Much has changed, I got some new toys and (spoiler, spoiler) my pussy was touched by someone other than myself. 

Update 10 Tuesday

The day started with me taking a trip to the beach. I chose one that is less popular with tourists because it’s almost entirely wild – the only restaurants and ice cream parlors are near the main entrance. Since the weather was sunny but not overly warm, there were only a couple of people.  I headed east, walking along a strip of wet and firm sand, breathing deeply and enjoying the near-solitude. Then I decided to get settled and choose a spot just below the dunes, with a nice big tree trunk to sit or lie down on.

While I was resting and letting my thoughts run wild I got an idea to add one count of semi public masturbation to my May adventure. I started fantasizing, getting myself hot, but whenever I thought I could start touching someone appeared on the horizon. Then two young women decided to sit down about 10 meters from me. I tried to wait them out but then decided it was pointless, since more and more people started appearing on the shoreline. I could have gone to the dunes but decided against it and packed my things to leave. While I was walking back I was hyper-aware of my arousal – the seam of my jeans kept rubbing against my clit, I was wet.

I returned home and took my course book to bed with me. It was soon forgotten in favor of the Butterfly Kiss and later the Acute and my fingers. I came three or four times that day. My orgasms with Butterfly Kiss felt like lightening bolt to the clit. This cheap vibe is worth more than most of the high end toys to me.

Update 11 Wednesday

One rule of my assignment was to fulfill all the suggestions posted in the comments to my last post. Somebody proposed getting off in the shower. I knew how it was going to end but my ambition refused to let me capitulate without a fight.  I got myself excited and took the Acute and my clit vibe with me to the bathroom cabin. I turned the shower on and, after playing with my clit for a while, slid the dildo into my vagina.  The water was hitting and caressing my body: my back, my shoulders, my breasts. I turned the clit vibe up, ready to get off. I was very close but nothing happened. Soon the water washed all my wetness and the vibe started dragging unpleasantly.  So I switched it off and took the showerhead from its stand. I turned it to a high-pressure, vibrating setting and started massaging my clit with it. I still could get very close but the relief of orgasm was beyond my reach. I gave up, washed myself with the dildo still in and attacked my clit again. I had t stop and start a couple of times. My thigh muscles got sore from clenching, my arm muscles got sore from pulling on my clit or trying to fuck my ass with my butt cheeks clenching and preventing access. I was ready to collapse from exhaustion, when I finally, finally came. It was a long and moderately strong orgasm but the pleasure was nothing compared to the relief I felt. Just as I was expecting.

Updates 12-15 Thursday-Sunday

I got my period. I had some very mild cramping and I used the clitoral part of the Butterfly Kiss (with the shaft bent against my vaginal opening) to chase it off whenever it showed its u
gly head. Compared to my previous periods this one was very, very mild and almost painless. I wonder how much of this is due to frequent orgasms before my I got it and how much due to pure chance.

Update 16 Monday

As soon as I got rid of the cup I had a ball with my Acute. Many happy orgasms. I get better and better at fingering my clit. It’s unexpected (I had preferred vibes as soon as I learned how to use them successfully) but very welcome.

Update 17 Tuesday

I visit voy forums after a long break. My fetish is alive and well. Five minutes of reading those “memories” and my pussy is positively dripping, swollen and aching for some action. It’s great to have the Acute. I think I’m going to write a love letter to Metis Black.

Update 18 Wednesday

I don’t have any privacy all day so I only manage to complete this part of the assignment after going to bed. I decide to make up for it by trying a new technique. Normally I need direct stimulation of the glans to get off. This time I fantasize till I’m very aroused and put both my hands on my vulva, palms flat, fingers together. The shaft of my clit peeks between my index fingers. I move my hands back and forth, rubbing it faster and faster.  My fantasy strong in my head, I get closer and closer and eventually start coming. During the orgasm I get a strong urge to touch the head of my clit so I press my finger against it and the sensation deepens.

Update 19 Thursday

Fun with Acute the wand-style vibe. It’s still a bit too numbing even with a washcloth. Better after the first orgasm.

Update 20 Friday

I put my Mae B. Loveballs in before leaving for the Uni. They aren’t terribly stimulating but they give me some thrill. Finished the day the same way as before.

Update 21 Saturday

Failure.  I went for a long walk with my kinky friend and then we ended up at hers. When I got back it was time to go to bed. I wanted to fantasize and get myself in the mood but fell asleep. It’s the second time I broke the rules because of her.

Update 22 Sunday

I had a ball with Acute and my fingers. When I was about to come I got the urge to rip the toy out of my vagina. I did it and the contractions were marvelous. I felt so open and exposed. I think I was close to female ejaculation but I didn’t notice any extra fluid. The situation repeated twice.

Update 23 Monday

I took my three most frequently toys (the clit vibe, the Butterfly Kiss and the Acute) and went of to visit my Gran. Nothing new ;)

Update 24 Tuesday

Things happen. I go to the beach and it soon gets too hot to parade in my jeans. When I decide to settle somewhere, I’m in the “nude” section that I was planning to only pass. I get undressed to my underwear. Soon a guy asks if he can put his towel beside me. I agree. We talk. He jerks off lazily. I take off my bra (mostly because it’s quite thick and warm but also because I get bolder). I flash a bit of pussy. I would have taken my tidy whities off too if I didn’t have so many red bumps from ingrown hair. He touches it but I get coy and tell him to stop. If STIs didn’t exist I would have him eat it then and there. Apparently he wasn’t hot enough for me to forget about safety. He asks about my turn-ons. The word “klismaphilia” won’t leave my mouth. I take the easy way out and tell about slash in general. So much for not censoring myself. He propositions me way to many times. We exchange numbers (because I don’t have the ovaries to reject people to their face and it’s the first time I’ve been asked) and leave. On my way out I meet a cute elderly nudist couple. We exchange only a few sentences but I already feel more comfortable because of the female presence.

I visit my Gran again to collect a package that arrived the other day but I didn’t get it because she was out and I had fallen asleep so the mailman only left the receipt. In the package is my second glass dildo – a copy of the Bent Graduate handmade by a Polish glass artist. I take it home and fuck the shit out of it while my sister is in the living room watching TV. One of my best purchases.

Update 25 Wednesday

Still excited by the previous day’s events I take my toys with me. My Gran leaves her apartment and I have about an hour to myself. I decide to indulge in my fetish since I haven’t done any anal (putting one finger in my ass to force an orgasm doesn’t count) since the beginning of my assignment. Lack of backdoor play would make this experiment totally unrepresentative regarding my desires. I use my clit vibe to get off during the first round. During the second, third and fourth (I use a small bag, nothing hardcore!) I’m still lubricating like crazy but I can’t get off. It’s probably due to the position I’m in (knee-chest). I’m not terribly bothered by it since I shouldn’t be touching my vulva anyway – easiest way to get an UTI. I end the session before it’s supposed to end and that’s good since my Gran returns when I’m hiding the equipment. Funny thing is that later I have a prepared ass and no desire to play with it any more. I fall asleep.

When I get home my Mom gives me a package. My hard-won Delight by Fun Factory has arrived. The fuckers shipped it to my home address (instead of the specified shipping address) and forgot to send the charger with it. I write them an email with a tone as short as its contents and they write back to apologize. My situation isn’t made better when my mother sees a three figure receipt (about $50, I still paid half of the best price I’ve seen). I comfort myself with the copy of Bent Graduate.

Update 26 Thursday

I discover that the Delight came pre-charged and immediately decide to use it. The orgasm is very, very mild. Compared to what I can get from a cheapo Butterfly Kiss it’s hardly noticeable. I repeat the experiment with the same results. Third orgasm of that day is with the bent Graduate and my fingers. I try not to be bitter about it.

Update 27 Friday

I take my toys with me again. That day the American presided is facilitating my orgasms. His visit is so engrossing to my Gran that she stays firmly in her living room watching the TV. I start with Bent Graduate in my pussy and the Mademoiselle “The Amazing Clit Vibe”. Then I switch the glass dildo for silicone and fuck myself some more. I even put the straight end of the BG in my ass. My Gran starts to open the door when I’m mid-orgasm. I’ve never been so grateful for how stubborn that door is.

Update 28 Saturday

I discover a new forum for klismaphiliacs. I think I should contact my HCP about that four-hour erection. My opinion of the Delight shifts when it turns out that my sister doesn’t hear it when she has her headphones on and I’m sitting a meter away from her. It’s the only penetrative toy that I can use wile sitting down, it’s easy to grip and I can use it whenever the mood strikes? I’d been too harsh to it.

Update 29 Sunday

To conserve the battery of my Delight (and have stronger climaxes) I use other toys. Namely the Bent Graduate copy and the Acute. I have an explosive orgasm from fingering my clit roughly and imprecisely (not long ago it had to be direct and precise) and fucking myself with the Acute.  My upper body lifts off the bed and then falls back on it. Previously I had to have a good vibe on the clit for that. (The unbeaten record is three “lifts and falls” during one orgasm with the Bead Blossom smelly-jelly rabbit).

Update 30 Monday

I take even more toys with me. I install myself in my Gran’s bedroom and study for a bit (till she knows to leave me alone) with my laptop on my lap. Then I open a folder of images cached from a Russian enema site. The folder is so big I’ve never been able to go through it all. Some have nothing to do with my fetish and some are just tiny thumbnails but the others make up for that. I put my clit vibe where it belongs and start browsing. At first I want to just turn myself on and then move to other toys but this isn’t what happens. I come upon an image of a young man in a submissive position with a hint of a nozzle lying next to him. He has a great ass. Before I know it I’m coming to the thought of administering to him and then fucking him with a Feeldoe. Then I reach pseudo vintage enema drawings and loose it again to the image of a boy receiving an enema while he performs cunnilingus on a woman. Before I numb my clit I decide that enough is enough and put my laptop on the floor, place the images on a loop and put my glasses on. That way I can see the porn but I have good access to my pussy. I fuck myself with all my three dildos, from the smallest to the biggest, coming at least once with each. I’m exhausted by the end of it.

Update 31 Tuesday

The charger arrives. You know what that means.

How did I do?

I’ve failed the “an orgasm per day” rule twice. That gives me an almost 94% score. There were times when I went way over that requirement. So that one is good.

On the “no boring” count I was even better. Maybe you don’t think so – my list reads like “Acute…clit vibe, Acute, Acute, Acute, Bent Graduate, Acute”, but my pussy disagrees with it being boring. There wasn’t one day when I forced an orgasm with my clit vibe and no previous arousal. I wasn’t crossing my legs as much too. I consider my old pattern broken and replaced. That one is awesome.

I completely failed the fantasy writing assignment. I had the material. I had inspirations. I was simply too lazy.

I didn’t use every toy that hasn’t hurt me before. I didn’t use any of my anal toys. My excuse is that when I don’t prep right, they hurt, but the point of this May was to take time and prep properly. I used the Loveballs only once.

I don’t know what grade I deserve for this. I’ve already been rewarded. The orgasms were strong and almost always easy to achieve, my libido got a boost. I got my pussy touched and could have gone way further if I really wanted to.