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It's the Safest & Easiest Way for Me to be Sexual with Other People

Sat, 04/17/2010 - 15:19
Submitted by WildOrchid

My parents decided to become asexuals. I know it's impossible by definition - you don't choose who you are attracted to ergo you don't choose your sexual orientation.

But you can force yourself to behave in a certain way. People do it all the time - we don't sleep with everyone we're attracted to just the ones we select. And we can, of course, force ourselves to perform sex acts that leave us cold. Since we moved out of the capital and into my dad's hometown - which was about 20 years ago - my parents' sex live died. And, since they don't need sex, they can't understand how anybody else could need their own sex life.

They think I'm weird for masturbating and buying sex toys. I can live with that. My mother is a bit more sympathetic - sometimes she chastises my sister when the little shit calls me a "whore" for doing it. My sister is a typical emo Twihard. She doesn't have a boyfriend because she's too much of an introvert (sounds familiar? ;)) to get one. But she won't masturbate either because she says it's unnatural. What's natural for her is expressing her sexual frustration by physically and emotionally berating us.

While masturbating in private is almost OK in my home, capturing it and sharing my videos on the net is not. They think it's freaky, unnatural and I should go to a psychiatrist if I want to do such things. They can't understand that it's the safest and easiest way for me to be sexual with other people. They would be totally OK if I found a boyfriend and fucked him six ways till Sunday. Mildly OK if it was a girlfriend. But exploring on my own, for my own sake and pleasure, without the benefit of a relationship and then sharing it? It sounds too much like sexual freedom.

A selfsexual, toy loving, possibly bisexual total virgin
http://selflovinggirl.blogspot.com/

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I know exactly what you

Sat, 04/17/2010 - 20:56
Kiwiboz (not verified)

I know exactly what you mean! My BF is married (blush) to an asexual woman and he has strong sexual desires. She called him a dirty pervert when he wanted to have sex with her. She basically begged him to do it until they had their two children then that was it for the next 29 years when he met me. My sister knows about my relationship with him, but she has also only had sex incredibly rarely and, I suspect not for many years and she thinks that even to think about sex at my age (I'm 59) let alone actually want to partake of it is so horrendous that she wont even speak about it directly. She makes derisorry noises and snide comments. My brother, who has always had a very healthy sex life is very understanding and says 'go for it'. (I wont get into a moral discussion - I know what we're doing goes against most social mores and I'm generally a decent, highly regarded person, but despite my guilty conscience, to have found love - we've been together for 6 years and have gone way beyond 'fuck buddies'- at the age of 53 - was I the world's only non-nun 53 yr old virgin? - has been an absolutely amazing revelations to me.)

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