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My Battle Scars

Mon, 03/19/2012 - 13:33
Submitted by Prose4Hoes

One of the only rules I was given as a writer for D&R was to be honest—even if it’s not flattering. I’ve taken this to heart and have spent the past few weeks mulling over what I wanted to write about. Finally as I stepped out of the shower last Friday and checked my naked body out in the foggy bathroom mirror, it came to me.

The first two years of highschool I battled with eating disorders. I developed anorexia Freshman year, leaving me 30 or 40 pounds light of what my natural weight was. After recovering mid way through sophomore year I was left with deep pink scars that stretched alongside my belly button from gaining all of the weight (and some) back so quickly. While my stomach has gotten tighter than it was then, the marks are still very visible.

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Wed, 01/25/2012 - 14:08
Submitted by Prose4Hoes

I masturbate. A lot. I masturbate on the weekend when I wake up, on the weekend before I go to bed, and when I get home from school. Hell, I masturbate in the girl’s bathroom when math class gets boring.

Masturbation has been a part of my daily routine since the seventh grade, when my best girl friend and I would spend hours sprawled out on the floor playing a verbal game we called “scenarios”. We would take turns describing sexual fantasies for one another involving a boy we had a crush on.

I still remember laying next to each other, one of us describing the other in a steamy situation – having sex in an after school detention on one of the desks, oral sex in the stairwell we used every day to go to gym – and squirming with anticipation.